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First Person Essays


The Family Dog (excerpt)
L to R: Human #1, MAXIMILLION, Human #2, GRANDMA, Human #3, HAMLET, Human #4 It was a good life for a dog. We had returned to our mesa,...

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Aug 23 min read


At 54, I Hit My First Film Festival Entry Out of the Ballpark
Shoga Films creator Robert Philipson reflects on his successful first film festival submission "Ma Rainey's Lesbian Licks"

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Jun 104 min read


A Fruitless Attempt To Save My "Daughter" and Me From Eternal Damnation
Robert Philipson attempts to save him and his daughter from eternal damnation

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May 194 min read


Hating Richard Nixon -- A Family Tradition
Born in 1950, I knew about Richard Nixon from the dawn of consciousness -- and he was synonymous with Evil. I inherited my contempt of...

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Apr 36 min read


"The Pit Bull of AIDS Litigation"
Alice Philipson - Berkeley based solo practitioner, 1987 In the 1980s, queer lawyers were still reluctant to come out publicly. They...

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Mar 163 min read


Black Rebellions I Have Known: The L.A. Episodes
Watts Rebellion, Los Angeles, California, August 13, 1965 Having grown up swathed in unrecognized white privilege (i.e. The Fifties), I...

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Feb 194 min read


My Mother Scotches A Communist Smear Campaign
Raising her family in a newly-created suburban neighborhood on a Pasadena mesa during the 1950s, my mother always knew she was a square...

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Jan 85 min read


Unplugging from Christmas
Christmas is upon us, and I glide through the capitalist frenzy and social anxiety with frictionless insouciance. I buy no Christmas...

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Dec 4, 20243 min read


A Basset in Paris
Lady Hamlet and her humans, 1961 It wasn’t easy for a dog used to the freedom of the San Gabriel Mountains to accommodate herself to the...

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Nov 6, 20243 min read


Aliyah Holds No Allure For Me
The young ulpanist in the rose greenhouse. Aliyah. In its Biblical context, “aliyah” is a Hebrew word meaning “to rise up” and...

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Oct 3, 20244 min read


My Ashkenazi Blinders
Four Jews The closest equivalent we have to the N-word as an ethnic slur is “kike,” which, while certainly meant to be wounding and...

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Sep 11, 20244 min read


I Translate Black Nationalism For the State Department
The closest equivalent we have to the N-word as an ethnic slur is “kike,” which, while certainly meant to be wounding and offensive,...

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Sep 7, 20244 min read


The Three Stages of Gay Acceptance
Folsom Street Fair 2019 --- not bad for 69 Way back in 1981, I was living in Washington, DC, with my first lover. I was only three years...

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Jun 5, 20243 min read


A Sunday Painter
In 1954, Jean Guyard, a Frenchman working as a civil servant in the tax department of the French Republic, married my cousin Marion...

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May 1, 20244 min read


Poetry Lite
I'm a poet And my feet know it. They’re longfellas. This sophomoric ditty illustrates the dilemma of a poetic practice which cuts...

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Apr 3, 20243 min read


"She's Just Like One of the Family"
Doris and Alice enjoy a Footsie Wootsie at the San Joanquin County Fair In 1954, at seventeen, Doris Hale started living with my family...

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Mar 6, 20244 min read


The Making and Unmaking of A "White" Africanist
Me and Ebrahim Hussein In the spring of 1994, I published a commentary in Research in African Literatures , "the premiere journal of...

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Feb 8, 20244 min read


My Coloured Friend
Some of the staff of Hage Geingob High School. Guess which one is the Coloured. First of all, note the British spelling. Second of all,...

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Jan 10, 20244 min read


I Uncover the Queer and Jewish Undercurrents of a Documentary Classic
The raffish director strikes a casual pose in front of the Queens Film Festival banner Grey Gardens , if you must know. And if you don't...

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Dec 7, 20234 min read


My Zionist Phase
As a mid-century Jewish American child, I was enrolled in the Zionist project without my knowledge or acquiescence. I was born in 1950,...

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Nov 1, 20234 min read


Fear of a Little Black Dress
When I was coming out in the Stone Age of the 1980s, drag was not well understood (at least by me) or widely accepted, even in the gay...

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Oct 4, 20234 min read


"My Son, the Fegeleh"
One blanket statement we can endorse about American Jewish boys and men is that we are neurotically attached to our mothers. Since our...

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Sep 7, 20233 min read


My Aborted Jazz Career
One of the Victorian legacies of the middle-class homes of the 1950s which bespoke of aspirations to gentility was the piano in the...

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Aug 2, 20234 min read


On Aging as a Gay Man
On the right! Look at the guy on the right! That’s me at age 69. The physical specimen with his arm around me is Adam, my personal...

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Jun 6, 20233 min read


Growing Up Clueless
And when I say "clueless," I'm talking specifically about African American culture. I grew up in Pasadena during the 50s and 60s. There...

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May 3, 20233 min read


My Poet
Of course he wasn't "my poet." He was my friend who was also a poet. I'd had other friends who wrote poetry and who had even published...

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Apr 5, 20235 min read


My Cousin Marion: Unsung Hero of the Guerilla Documentary
At the age of 30, my mother's first cousin, Marion Michelle, met and fell in love with the famous left-wing Dutch documentary filmmaker...

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Mar 1, 20233 min read


My Cultural Gaffe: Criticizing the Use of Swahili in Kwanzaa
Around 1990, I had recently returned to America from a year of dissertation research on East Africa's most famous playwright whose plays...

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Feb 1, 20234 min read


Distant Echoes of the Holocaust
During December of 1977, I found myself intensely nostalgic for the remembered rituals and celebrations of the American Christmases I had...

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Jan 9, 20234 min read


XMAS
We were talking about Christmas, about the Christmas tree, and we never called it a Chanukah bush. I must have heard that somewhere...

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Dec 7, 20223 min read


My Dinner Chez Josephine
In 2013 I was in New York to screen one of my films at the Harlem International Film Festival. While there I learned that one of...

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Sep 7, 20223 min read
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